5.02.2010

When Somebody Loved Me Everything Was Beautiful...

It's final weeks which in short means reviewing everything you thought you knew to quickly and unfortunately realize you know nothing. Then you stress, worry, and think about thinking about sleeping but, you don't. And if you're me, you have two, really 3, jobs, semi-alcoholic neighbors, friends in other states having mock crises which require 4am phone calls, and presentations galore. I do everything for everyone and for nothing besides, temporary peace of mind. And while I hate to quote Ms. Spears in such a moment, "all I need is time, a moment that is mine, while I'm in between." So, there it is dearest of constantly neglected blogs, I'm someone I don't know and currently feeling a little besides myself.


Someone with Postsecret agrees:


"She needs wide open spaces
Room to make her big mistakes
She needs new faces."



It's fairly simple really: my ever-increasing list of things to do is leaving me feeling totally undone. I try to take one day at a time, but sometimes several days attack me at once. It's cheating. The world is cheating, or perhaps the world is just wiser than I. Either way, I've found there is only one solution:
I want to take a vacation...with myself. How beautiful it is to do nothing, and then to rest afterward.
I shall sip cocoa, leave my hair in it's original waved bounce state, and pray for the rain to continue. If I'm lucky laughter, dancing, and romantic interests will be peaked.

World, now, right now, I need me.

6 comments:

MarjnHomer said...

its hard to do but take it one day at a time and get small things done so you can tackle the big things

pilgrimchick said...

It can be difficult at times, but things do even themselves out to a certain degree over time--things seem less overwhelming.

妍慧 said...

It's great!!..........................................

sevencarpileup said...

My theory on life is that the harder you work now, the more you rest later. There's nothing better than the feeling of realizing that what you will accomplish is nothing but a function of what you have accomplished in the past. Good luck maam!

吳婷婷 said...

Words are not living in dictionary. Words are living in mind.............................................................

崔佐安崔佐安 said...

first catch your hare, then cook him. ..................................................