11.15.2009

Sunday Snippets #7--When You Smile At Me You Know Exactly What You Do

The problem lies in that gap of time before everything either goes horribly right or perfectly wrong. But, what sucks more than any of that is being disappointed. It burns because it means that at some point you trusted and believed in something that you no longer do. It means that you wanted to share a piece of another person, place, or thing with yourself and it just didn't follow through. You let go of whatever boundary and insecurity was within you for the sake of another but, still it wasn't enough because, it, him, her, or perhaps even they didn't follow through.Or maybe, it was the other way around. Doesn't really matter how it happened, or when it happened. In fact, it doesn't even matter where it happened. What matters is that it happened at all. Even if by some odd chain of event you learn to forgive and forget you will never believe in the same way. But that's life, loosing and gaining faith. If it didn't happen how would we know that anything, anybody, or any place matters? We wouldn't. That's why I'm sure that today you're the only thing (my red bicycle, vintage 6th grade diary, & first love) that I know like the back of my hand. I trust that.

Lesson Learned: What matters is not the idea a man holds, but the depth at which he holds it.

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

The burn happens when you loose faith in that person because when you gave them a piece of faith it was a piece of your own and so when you loose faith in others it's hard not to loose faith in your self.

Mona said...

It was driving me crazy to figure out what song the post title was from but I got it. Good song ;)

washi said...

we've all had those moments...some of us more than others granted, but we learn from there and move on...sometimes a little broken, sometimes a lot..

z-dizzle said...

You definitely know how i feel about this...I can often forgive but never forget, if i forget i won't be able to learn from that event. When you have so much faith in something or someone disappointment is the worst feeling...awesome post PTexan :)

Hazar said...

This sucks. I always feel like I give everyone my all but barely get anything back. It is a big fail to have a higher priority for them than they have for you.

Anonymous said...

Kinda sounds like a Mariah Carey song too....